i don fit well into society

with my extreme and weird interest in things, together with my introvert character, i find myself in many situation where i find i have no common topic to talk about..

you see, the common topic people chat about..

1. food (i am not a fan of food hunting, at least not in singapore. homecook is the best)

2. soccer (or any sports in general. i love sports and love seeing how underdog teams grab they opportunities and outperform, but you see, i don really follow the sports news closely. )

3. drama (i seldom watch tv or shows nowadays. the last tv-series was how i met your mother. i prefer to watch things with strong content)

4. drinking / clubbing (i nv club for years, and drinking is always about the company, not about visiting the most hippy and happening places)

5. games (i only play idiot proof games nowadays, which i just happen to delete them away )

6. shopping (my mom taught me well, only to buy things i need, and curb the urge to buy things i want. also, as i'm working towards a nomad lifestyle, i don need lots of things. less is actually more)

7. gossips (i don follow celebrity news, unless i find them inspiring. i don remember their names, what show they starred in and their latest rumours. by nature, not a very gossipy person)

8. reading (i have huge difficulties finishing a fiction book. i prefer self help than fiction, but people seldom discuss about self help. recently, i realised i kind of like to read biography of inspiring people)

9. movies (haha.. i seriously cant name a movie showing in theatres now. somehow, don know since went, i stop following up on what new this week in the movies, as most movies content are plain crap. but i believe, this is something i can work on)

10. music (i lost touch ever since i started working, as i have little to no time to listen to radio. i know, this i can work on)


and last but not least, Travelling.

my form of travelling is kind of different from the majority. to me, anything crowded means the place has lost it favour.

while for many, the form of traveling may be to go shopping or visit iconic landmarks (i do make exception to go visit the must-go-and-see landmarks), my form of a holiday is about adventuring and escaping to nature..

its is always easier to sink into the vast nature and admire and appreciate the small little thing and company we are so fortunate to have. but when it comes to the iconic landmarks, it more like photo-taking for bragging rights.. i don feel i "got it" much...

so as always, when i try to tell my adventurers stories, people turn and give me a glare with a disapproving look staring back at me..


sometimes, i really feel i don fit well in society...

lookback for 2014

1. Live a true life to yourself, not in the expectations of others

I think I only partially fulfill this in 2014. I believe i did live a true life to myself in almost all aspect, except for work.. 

there are many moments in 2014, where I'm literally dragging my ass to the office, which is a big tell tale sign that I'm not living true to myself.. 

I guess the expectations that you must do a job society deem appropriate is still huge that I did not overcome (yet..)

2. I wish I did not work so hard..

Haha. This is gonna be contradicting, but I somehow wish I have worked smarter. Haha.. 

My work life is pretty balanced so there is nothing for me to complain about.. in fact, I hoped I have work smarter to achieve more without sacrificing more time..

3. I wish I had the courage to express my feelings

I think I did fairly ok for this in 2014, expressing my gratitude and love whenever appropriate. 

As asian, we are not akin to expressing, so sometimes I wonder if my friends think I'm a freak when I get mashy mushy..  

4. I wish I have stayed in touch with my friends

Well, I can only say I did so so in this aspect. Certainly, I did try to stay in touch with a lot for my adventuring friends. This was a year I went on more trips (within a year) than I ever had in the past 7 years.. I also tried to connect with the younger juniors to forge better relationships.. 

But it's was on the expense on my other friends like secondary friends, poly mates, army mates, uni friends and uni cca friends.. this will be something I look to improve in 2015.

5. I wish I have let myself be happier

I am happy with myself and thankful for what I have.. there will be times where I'm less happy but it is just life, there are ups and downs.. 

2014 have been great and I hope it will be the same for 2015. I am really glad that I'm able to achieve the above 5 points I swear by..

Wishing everyone the best of luck in whatever you set to achieve. Be courageous, be adventurers and go chase after your dreams..