Disappointed..

Just yesterday, I was reading through my old post about relationship, family, love and being love.

The last part of that post was about work relationships. After about a month of feeling ok (perhaps due to not thinking too much) I got smack really hard by reality today. 

On a very last minute notice, someone from my team is required to stayed back today after work for some system testing. And mind you, the timing is ridiculous, 6.30pm till 9.30pm.. You know, everyone have plans on a Friday evening.. Some have important things, gathering, dinner appt, movie, exercising etc etc. 

I was so so disappointed that there was no room for negotiation on who to stay, the door was slam shut right in front of my face. No love, no concern, only leaving me feeling shock, rude, and seriously unhappy.

The issue which I was concerned most happened to me. Hai, seriously, after so much effort, nothing changed. Has really everything all gone to waste? I really don't know how to manage it further.. 

In work, the matter of fact is, the one who cares losses the most.. the one who do the best work gets the most shit and the one who is easy going gets push around endlessly. 

Politics (Office) Sucks, Reality sucks, Society suck.

Nobody is willing to first take a step forward to contribute and take a step backwards to give in. 

True friends are hard to come by, I'm thankful and treasure truthfully with what I have

So long never write

It has been busy for the month Mar.

Planning my canoe to batam trip and helping my dad with some signage design. 

Kayak to Batam trip got serious this month. Real serious, that although I have not sent any proposal or got any approval yet, I confidently feel the trip is plannable. 

Throughout this process, I realised and experience first hand that, anything is possible so long you set your mind and heart to do it.

I recall starting the vague thought of planning the trip 6months ago with very uncertain, unsure feeling. how do I go about to do this trip? 

But the more determine I get, the more I give thought to it, the more I talk and ask people about this, the more confident I get.

It's not only on the planning part, I'm equally worried about the safety, the weather and the proficiency level... 

In anycase, I have already put in too much effort. I am so set and determined to get this done, so I will take on whatever obstacle or challenges along the way. 

Anyway, I just want to pen down the incredible feeling of knowing everything is possible.