so, go out and tell everyone you care about: Thank You & I Love You ~~~

im gonna be v random here today..

today is my mom's birthday.. and unfortunately, today also happens to be the day my grandma pass away.

hearing the description of how they found out ah ma pass away, i'm just glad to know ah ma pass away so peacefully.. no struggle, not in pain (i think the morphine helped)... just went to sleep and stop breathing.


it sets me thinking what are her thoughts before death:

is ah ma happy with her life?
my ah ma is really really old (like 100 this year), does she feel "tired of living"
does ah ma remembers and miss her teban home ?
is she angry and fustrated with life, with her illness?
has she really enjoyed life?
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my ah ma has been a very very very stubborn person, till a point that at times its hard to tolerate.

though i can't fully agree with some of my ah ma comment, way of thinking, dealing with food, etc etc.. but today, i could suddenly see things from a different lens, that a lot of things she did came out from LOVE....

like most ah ma, cooking good food for us to visit her on sundays, giving us big ang baos, scramble and save just to give the best to the rest..

it forces me to recall and remember some of the recent cute & incidents i had with ah ma. and also, like all grandparents wishes to grandchildren, to 发大彩 & do a good job in high ranking post..

Why is it that only at times like this then we could take out our compassion and see things from the good side?



come to think about it,  ah ma is actually v fortunate, to be able to live to a 100 years, to have been able to live and stay at home, to be able to carry great grand children (4th generation whaha), and also to have all her children still here to accompany her into final stage in life..  



when i return home, finding my quiet moment at a corner, it just suddenly dawn on me it can be so scary that a person who went out through the maindoor a few days back is never ever coming back again..



her favorite candy: 冰糖

recently, we starting giving her m&m instead, and she like it.. i think cos it colourful..

so, remember to give thanks and appreciate all the small things in life.